Gets harder but then a little easier

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Gets harder but then a little easier

Category: Life

Well my birthday is coming up as most of you know and at this time I had planned to find out what the baby was going to be, boy or girl. I would have been almost 20 weeks along and showing pretty good. I would have been half way there. So as my birthday gets closer it gets harder to think how far developed the baby would have been and know that in less than 5 more months the baby would be here. God had other plans for us.

As the time goes by its been over two months ago that we found out we lost the baby (it feels like just yesterday at times) but as time goes by its gets easier because now we are trying again. The Dr wanted us to wait two cycles and here we are on the second cycle so this month will be the month we start trying. Last month we weren't trying but we weren't not trying either.
So soon September 3rd will come and go and hopefully we will be looking forward to another date to hold our baby. Like the song on my profile says "I can rest in knowing that Heaven is your home and its all you'll ever know".

This time around we have both agreed that we aren't going to tell anyone until about the 3rd month. I am sorry for all who are anxiously waiting. You all know me, it will be very hard to keep it a secret, so help me out and please don't ask! lol. We will see maybe we will change our mind again. I just wouldn't be able to stand another heartbreak like that.
Anyway, thats all for now, just some things I have been thinking about.